Fly. Flight.

Going over to Taiwan tomorrow. Going to be a 19 days stay there. Kind of looking forward to what is going to happen there, but no doubt, leaving my homeland will be a bit emotional. Seriously, thanks god i am not attached, or else this night is going to feel like forever. Talking about this, went out with Vincent for movie and pool session. We watched "house bunny" which is quite a good show. A comedy based on the US university lifestyle, showing "fraternities and sororities" and all the uni kind of relationships. The eye-opening part is seeing those girls transformed from mediocre look to those "WOW" kind of look, din know making up and dressing up can be so revolutionary.

Then for pool, i improved a lot. Last time, when played with him i will really get trashed quite badly, but now we are more or less be on par. This is a good sign, i mean at least we can now play a good proper game. But still, he is the best player out of all my friends. lol. Pool is fun!

Anyway, talked to vincent about some issues. I was saying that sometimes we cannot just start a relationship because we love a girl, we got to take a look at ourselves, can we actually give her happiness, satisfy her every demands or are we actually a worthy boyfriend that she will be proud to mention in front of her friends. Then i continued, for example, if someone is an tall, tanned officer plus some chairman in some societies, his girlfriend will be proud to have him as a boyfriend. Then he said, if she is that kind that treat you as a label then you should stop being with her. But the problem is most of the time you wun know what girl is thinking about, even though you have been with her for years. So obviously, by upgrading yourself to a more worthy boyfriend is the safest way to sustain relationship.

End of the day, i feel the argument is so wrong. Isn't relationship all about love? Why does it involve so much externalities. Perhaps the world is getting far too complex and intelligent.

If relating to my past kind of lifestyle whereby i chase a girl just because there is this tingling infatuation or some weak definition of love, i think things change. Seriously, doing some introspection, i dun have outstanding achievements, like chairman of blah blah or officer. I dun have outstanding look. I am not so rich that i can drive different sports car every month. I really dun have much to offer girl( Maybe i can offer love and commitment, but seriously buy that?) . This substantiate the point that i should not go into relationship now or anytime soon.

Hmmm.... When i am confident of being a good boyfriend and able to give the one i love happiness, then i shall start a relationship. I have seriously no confidence....