Have not been blogging for quite some time. Last week is my birthday and there was some celebration from my friends in NS-A treat to jack's place. As for birthday wish, i got a target for the next 1 year of my life. For me, attaining that is something like a quantum leap, but i will try my best... I dun wan to regret when i am older or even let my children fulfill my goal for me in the future. I wanna do it for myself while i still can!
Going over to Taiwan in 6 days time. It will be a rather long stay for about 3 weeks, after which i am going to prepare for my ORD in 2 weeks time when i touch down singapore. Well, my OC(from RJC) had a last interview with me last night, I talked about what i will be doing in the future, and he expressed his opinion abt me- I get things done in my own way. Responsible. Can be entrusted with task. He end everything with, "U r a good guy". Ok, this just sounds weird. Well, all in all, i am content with what i have achieved in NS and at least i gain more respect than some so-called officers.
Time to transit.
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Monday, September 15, 2008
Spica
There is still jap song intro by my frenx that i like a lot. The song name is "Spica", which refers to the brightest star in the constellation Virgo, and guess wad, my horoscope is Virgo. Maybe because of this affiliation that is why i like it so much!
Lyrics is here!
I know it was you who told me
That two stars are called by one name
Tokyo is decorated in all different colours
So many lights to negate the darkness
I searched for the night sky
How long did it take me?
Everything I do is all for you
See, if the light of the stars reunites the two hands that were parted
If the name of the star I’ve just remembered leads me to a future I’d lost the way to
We’ll be side by side forever, just the two of us, a white Spica
We came undone, unable to work out the fraction of our love
It’s OK to have the same answer as someone else
Watching the moon, climbing a hill, wandering in space
I sing like a cat crying
How long will it be
Until the morning comes?
Don’t lie, don’t go away
If the light of the stars still connects me to a love I’d forgotten
If the name of the star I’ve just remembered illuminates a future that was hidden
We’ll surely be side by side, just the two of us, a white Spica
See, if the light of the stars reunites the two hands that were parted
If the name of the star I’ve just remembered leads me to a future I’d lost the way to
If the light of the stars still connects me to a love I’d forgotten
If the name of the star I’ve just remembered illuminates a future that was hidden
We’ll be side by side forever, just the two of us, a white Spica
I heard a gentle, gentle voice
Sad, sad tears fell
I miss, I miss your heart
But I’ll never see you again
I’ll never see you again…
We look really far apart from here
I could see you in my past and in my future
Lyrics is here!
I know it was you who told me
That two stars are called by one name
Tokyo is decorated in all different colours
So many lights to negate the darkness
I searched for the night sky
How long did it take me?
Everything I do is all for you
See, if the light of the stars reunites the two hands that were parted
If the name of the star I’ve just remembered leads me to a future I’d lost the way to
We’ll be side by side forever, just the two of us, a white Spica
We came undone, unable to work out the fraction of our love
It’s OK to have the same answer as someone else
Watching the moon, climbing a hill, wandering in space
I sing like a cat crying
How long will it be
Until the morning comes?
Don’t lie, don’t go away
If the light of the stars still connects me to a love I’d forgotten
If the name of the star I’ve just remembered illuminates a future that was hidden
We’ll surely be side by side, just the two of us, a white Spica
See, if the light of the stars reunites the two hands that were parted
If the name of the star I’ve just remembered leads me to a future I’d lost the way to
If the light of the stars still connects me to a love I’d forgotten
If the name of the star I’ve just remembered illuminates a future that was hidden
We’ll be side by side forever, just the two of us, a white Spica
I heard a gentle, gentle voice
Sad, sad tears fell
I miss, I miss your heart
But I’ll never see you again
I’ll never see you again…
We look really far apart from here
I could see you in my past and in my future
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Under the moon.
Now is past 12am, so technically speaking yesterday is "mid-autumn festival". Went out with some old friends to play lanterns and some candles. Looking at the wax and wavering flame, it brings me back to my childhood time. The innocence and fun-loving nature is just so tickling to the memory.
Anyway, there is still particular person that kind of pissed me off, for talking so mindlessly. I know i rarely burst out in anger and rarely show my disgruntlement, and that does not mean he can talk to me as if i am just a punching bag-For him to punch! Well, i seriously cant be bothered about him, i am just so tired to argue with him. Dun understand how some people can be so retarded after living for 20 years.
I know wad i wanna learn....
Anyway, there is still particular person that kind of pissed me off, for talking so mindlessly. I know i rarely burst out in anger and rarely show my disgruntlement, and that does not mean he can talk to me as if i am just a punching bag-For him to punch! Well, i seriously cant be bothered about him, i am just so tired to argue with him. Dun understand how some people can be so retarded after living for 20 years.
I know wad i wanna learn....
Friday, September 12, 2008
Ruminating....
Let's say, We start at point A, and choosing a particular path we reach point B. Now, point B is just only inches beside point A. It is as though if there is a map of our life, We are circling about the same ground- We have not move at all. If i am like nicolas cage in the movie "Next", i will map out all possibilities of my future and choose the path according to the result i want.
Sometimes i dunno how to describe my life. It can be colourful because many wonderful things past by me and i have witnessed them, and am still going to witness them. But it can sucks, because i fail to hold on to alot of them. Next question is, in order to be happy, must we learn to hold on to things such that we can learn to treasure, or must we actually learn to let go because nothing in the world is immutable?
Oh ya... i am lying in the second paragraph. I will describe my life as colourful, because i am an utilitarian, it is more useful to believe life is good and nice :)
Sometimes i dunno how to describe my life. It can be colourful because many wonderful things past by me and i have witnessed them, and am still going to witness them. But it can sucks, because i fail to hold on to alot of them. Next question is, in order to be happy, must we learn to hold on to things such that we can learn to treasure, or must we actually learn to let go because nothing in the world is immutable?
Oh ya... i am lying in the second paragraph. I will describe my life as colourful, because i am an utilitarian, it is more useful to believe life is good and nice :)
Sunday, September 7, 2008
A facade
Woke up at 8 plus and lay on bed thinking about my past, present, future and essentially what kind of person am i.
I really sucks at expressing my thoughts and emotions. There is this this stoic calm countenance that forbid me to express my emotion within me. I treasure the ppl around me alot, but i just dun show it, and that is why the people around me keeps leaving i guess. How emotionally retarded i am... My mask wear off only when i am alone.
Excellent results, good CCA, scholarship, Officer- This should be the correct path everybody is aiming i guess, and eventually emerge as the elite of the society. I got this chance to take this path, but i blew the chance. Beside, taking up this path will earn you a greater recognition and if you got a girlfriend, i think she will be very proud to have you as her boyfriend. There are various turns in my life, if i can go back time and take a different turn, will my life now turn out different? That is what i am thinking.... What will become of me now if i actually take that royal path?
Then there is still battling thoughts, Why am i defining my way of life base on the inputs of other people? We dont live in an isolated world, interaction between people cause us to define ourselves according to how people define us. So which is the correct one? Both are equally true, and is just a matter of own personal choice. I guess i know which is the path i will take. I am going to stay true to my own way of life.....
I was thinking, why must we always make that royal path as the goal. Till now, i am still skeptical about that. I remember in my JC life, there is still friend in my class that got almost the same thinking as me. We live our life according to our ideals, not bounded by other's people expectation and norms.
I really sucks at expressing my thoughts and emotions. There is this this stoic calm countenance that forbid me to express my emotion within me. I treasure the ppl around me alot, but i just dun show it, and that is why the people around me keeps leaving i guess. How emotionally retarded i am... My mask wear off only when i am alone.
Excellent results, good CCA, scholarship, Officer- This should be the correct path everybody is aiming i guess, and eventually emerge as the elite of the society. I got this chance to take this path, but i blew the chance. Beside, taking up this path will earn you a greater recognition and if you got a girlfriend, i think she will be very proud to have you as her boyfriend. There are various turns in my life, if i can go back time and take a different turn, will my life now turn out different? That is what i am thinking.... What will become of me now if i actually take that royal path?
Then there is still battling thoughts, Why am i defining my way of life base on the inputs of other people? We dont live in an isolated world, interaction between people cause us to define ourselves according to how people define us. So which is the correct one? Both are equally true, and is just a matter of own personal choice. I guess i know which is the path i will take. I am going to stay true to my own way of life.....
I was thinking, why must we always make that royal path as the goal. Till now, i am still skeptical about that. I remember in my JC life, there is still friend in my class that got almost the same thinking as me. We live our life according to our ideals, not bounded by other's people expectation and norms.
You tell me what is _____ .
A minimalist answer to redundancy.
Going into old chinese songs recently. The older songs are richer in term of emotion, and also incite a much stronger feeling in the listener. There is this song by 郑中基 which i particularly fancy. The lyrics and the splendour of the melody is simply to hard to resist.
绝口不提!爱你
闭上眼睛忍住呼吸
暂时要和世界脱离
就快要学会不再想你
却听见不断跳动的心
我允许了你让爱的自由还给你
我允许了自己承受这悲伤到天明
我不愿放弃却要故意默默允许
我答应自己爱你的心绝口不提
总是以为终究化作云淡风轻
爱你到底痛了自己
我不愿放弃却要故意默默允许
我答应自己爱你的心绝口不提
所有结局在这夜里都已成形
爱到了底痛的是我的真心
Watched quite a lot of shows these few days. Yesterday i watched "be kind rewind" and the documentary show "stonehenge decoded". Today watched "Wall-e". Ok... a bit tough to give a detailed synopsis and comment for each show, but i will give a rough one.
"Be kind rewind" is a different sort of comedy movie with a novel plot. There is this shop that rents old movie tapes to customers and the 2 main guy that happens to tend the shop accidentally erase all the contents in the tape. Now, they need to refilm every movie with the limited props and cast they have. A movie inside a movie- interesting. The whole movie is pretty entertaining with some brief emotional portion in it.
"Stonehenge decoded". A documentary show showing us the various theories for the purpose of building of stonehenge, and telling us the latest discovery and new theory proposed. Ok, i like all this kind of enigmatic stuff so i think is a quite a delightful watch.
Last. "wall e". It is one of the black horse. Surprisingly good is wad i will say. I thought it will be an equivalence to a mime and damned boring, but i was so so wrong! I can safely say that it is the best animation i have ever seen, and the credit largely goes to the marvelous plot! Well, beside the environmental message it is trying to convey(which is obvious), the kind of immaculate, untainted and pure relationship between the 2 robots is quite touching. I am going to get it when the DVD is out. Oh ya... please leave the science part of your brain aside while watching the show. This show is not entirely scientifically rational. LOL.
Yes, after "wall-e", while walking home, i saw one of my old friend- Choon kiat. Ok, is really quite an coincidence. Have a short talk. I know most of my friends are going overseas. I want a new environment, exposure and different air too. But some move that we make is unchangeable. Sadly, we cant undo the move we made. But, this is no longer the issue, i know how i can make up for that loss- doing something that i cannot achieve if i am overseas.
Going into old chinese songs recently. The older songs are richer in term of emotion, and also incite a much stronger feeling in the listener. There is this song by 郑中基 which i particularly fancy. The lyrics and the splendour of the melody is simply to hard to resist.
绝口不提!爱你
闭上眼睛忍住呼吸
暂时要和世界脱离
就快要学会不再想你
却听见不断跳动的心
我允许了你让爱的自由还给你
我允许了自己承受这悲伤到天明
我不愿放弃却要故意默默允许
我答应自己爱你的心绝口不提
总是以为终究化作云淡风轻
爱你到底痛了自己
我不愿放弃却要故意默默允许
我答应自己爱你的心绝口不提
所有结局在这夜里都已成形
爱到了底痛的是我的真心
Watched quite a lot of shows these few days. Yesterday i watched "be kind rewind" and the documentary show "stonehenge decoded". Today watched "Wall-e". Ok... a bit tough to give a detailed synopsis and comment for each show, but i will give a rough one.
"Be kind rewind" is a different sort of comedy movie with a novel plot. There is this shop that rents old movie tapes to customers and the 2 main guy that happens to tend the shop accidentally erase all the contents in the tape. Now, they need to refilm every movie with the limited props and cast they have. A movie inside a movie- interesting. The whole movie is pretty entertaining with some brief emotional portion in it.
"Stonehenge decoded". A documentary show showing us the various theories for the purpose of building of stonehenge, and telling us the latest discovery and new theory proposed. Ok, i like all this kind of enigmatic stuff so i think is a quite a delightful watch.
Last. "wall e". It is one of the black horse. Surprisingly good is wad i will say. I thought it will be an equivalence to a mime and damned boring, but i was so so wrong! I can safely say that it is the best animation i have ever seen, and the credit largely goes to the marvelous plot! Well, beside the environmental message it is trying to convey(which is obvious), the kind of immaculate, untainted and pure relationship between the 2 robots is quite touching. I am going to get it when the DVD is out. Oh ya... please leave the science part of your brain aside while watching the show. This show is not entirely scientifically rational. LOL.
Yes, after "wall-e", while walking home, i saw one of my old friend- Choon kiat. Ok, is really quite an coincidence. Have a short talk. I know most of my friends are going overseas. I want a new environment, exposure and different air too. But some move that we make is unchangeable. Sadly, we cant undo the move we made. But, this is no longer the issue, i know how i can make up for that loss- doing something that i cannot achieve if i am overseas.
Friday, September 5, 2008
The night feels the same everywhere.
Release from camp at about 10.10pm which is really damned late! But since i going to ord, it doesn't really matter much to me.
Walking home under the night, it brings back a familiar feeling. A mixture of memories and emptiness. Once again, i know it is going to be an emotional night. Why the night just feel the same everywhere? Or is it i havent been to somewhere else different?
Walking home under the night, it brings back a familiar feeling. A mixture of memories and emptiness. Once again, i know it is going to be an emotional night. Why the night just feel the same everywhere? Or is it i havent been to somewhere else different?
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