Saturday, February 14, 2009

Defining self.

Ok, end of the week already (Some calendar prefer to define sunday to be the start of the week, but i prefer it to be the end). Last week had been quite heavy and exhausting. Just sent 2 good friends off to Australia for their studies. Good luck to their future endeavours! I think the main source of exhaustion still come from the intense amount of thinking... For some unknown reasons, lots of questions started popping up in my mind. The thing about life is that, it is a series of paradigm shift and continuous search for answers. It turns out that most of the time, the answer to our question is yet another question or even more questions. Perhaps we should accept "no answer" as our answer to our question to terminate this iteration process. But i am not really a person that can settle with "no answer" to my question. I am still exploring and learning. Hope i can get a more satisfactory answer...

Just found some nice music while surfing. All instrumental but is more towards the POP instead of classical, by SENS. Most of the pieces are really emo to the max, and this makes me like it even more. Well, so for ppl that like some emo instrumental music can try their songs.

I still think i am not an easy to understand person. Unless, someone befriend me for a long time, or i willing to bring out my other side and talk, most people will not understand me. Good thing is there are a small handful of peopl that understand different part of me. This makes me not that alone...

Sunday, February 1, 2009

The closest to heaven i can get.

There will come a point where you can no longer simplify without complicating it.

It will be good if there is an all-encompassing rule to help us make decision or perceive our surrounding. But such rule does simply doesnt exist. World is just complicated, no way we can simplify it further. Been trained in science for 10 years, we are programmed to believe in a deterministic world, a mechanistic world, a simple rule operating behind our seemingly complex world. This simplification process makes our daily life event or any other world event more accessible to our mind, and gave us a false sense of security. But this excessive simplification will just result in loss in information which deprived our mind of the pertinent and neccessary info during decision making or life pursuit.

The study of humanities subject ranging from history, literature to philosophy does not teach us any lessons that is useful at all. In another word, it is just mere "noise" with no meaning.
They tend to complicate things to such an extent that it has practically infinitesimal amount of utility. Only through distilling through all those information from the text, then can we filter off the noise and obtain useful information. This is why some people get bored at reading the dialogue by socrates, because to them, all these raw words are just like noise that is, firstly beyond comprehension and secondly useless. But all these text are so highly priced for a reason, and that lies in the meaning behind all those noise which can only be reached through thoughtful analysis. The next funny thing is again, not all the meaning that is derived is useful or in some sense "right". Different people learn of different things from the same text of reference. But not all is applicable in this world and not all are equally right. This is where next stage of filtering comes, choose the idea or meaning that most fit the environment. These filtering of useful information can continue ad infinitum, and the end result, if there is any, will be the quintessence. This quintessence should by right be the most simplified and useful information. But from the start, simplified stuff often proved to be of no value or utility. There is a contradiction. This second paragraph just presents a very faulty thought process, which is simplicity varies directly with the usefulness.

In life we are face with complexity, and using simplicity as an arsenal will not help. There is no simple way out of these intricate complexity of life. We just got to live with it.