In retrospect.....

Nothing is worth believing in, and nothing is firm enough for us to believe in it- by me!

Was watching I guess before started typing this entry. The "I guess" theme for tonight is based on secondary school girls, and the conversations that took place really invoked quite a fair bit of memories. Seeing the poems those teenage girls wrote and their infantile actions, really add a great deal of laughter to my night, but again, who never been through secondary school life. I guess most of us did quite a lot of juvenile stuffs back then, and i believe i am one of those hopelessly childish person! LOL!

The epic joke of my life is actually going around declaring love for girls from secondary 1 to 3. I can easily come up with 10 girls' name whom i declare to before. Looking back, i guess i am top in one of their "Must shun away" list, and because of the way i behave, coupled with the extra frivolousness, i never really succeed. Well, i never really blame them, because i think i am just playing around as well. But seriously, this is one of the most interesting and memorable period of my life, and as crazy or comical as it sounds, it really is a memory that i really treasured.

At least 4 years have passed, but i feel the change i have gone through is quite tremendous. I got this "appraisal" from my fren in camp. He says i am quite a deep person, how i behave is just the very surface of me, there is a hidden and intricate inner episode.

Justification: In the day, i will jus crap around play around. At night, i got this stern look as if i am deep in thoughts, and he can't guess what i am thinking.

LOL!!!! That is one of the most interesting comment i ever heard actually. But i can assure all of you i am not some anti-anthropic freak that is plotting for a cataclysm or what. But long periods of introspection and reading really bring a whole new facet to this world. Learning to look at things from a third person perspective, learning to assess situation with greater insights and so on. One good example, there is this book i saw called "How to be a complete failure?", and my friends will just say who will want to buy this kind of book. Well, in this society where success and failure has a very distorted, ill-defined meaning, i think we should not reject this book instantly. Yes... and i did buy that book by the way. LOL!

Ok... off to bed. Goodbye!